K-Dizzles journal

mothabitch @ 2008-11-13T23:56:00

2008-11-14T06:56:59Z

god i love its always sunny in philidelphia

tonight was by far one of the best episodes

in my opinion

2008-11-05T18:03:47Z

both canidates sucked but i voted republican,each had there views and most werent going to change the way the economy was,obama thinks taxing people who make over a quarter million dollars a year willl help the economy to give to people who dont work as hard as them which is gonna effect the economy in a whole new different way most likely by pissing off the people who worked hardest for what they have which is bull shit by the way,taxes blow in general i know but weve done fine by them in the past couple decades which a new plan cant "fix" what bush messed up when actually bush had been trying to fix the economy from the last democrat that was in office(clinton) who also though adjusting or "we need change" will fix it. Ya so obamas black who gives a shitis he really gonna threaten any white person? no but in my opinion the phrase we are fucked seems very true with such a young preident elect but above all i would love to see him prove me wrong. My argument is that i one day am trying to be a joe the plumber hopefully owning a business that does well over a quarter million and i personally dont wanna pay any sore lazy poor broken down bastards who are to lazy to get off there ass and make a real career with a real education,any part of my money,but i guess its no different because like my grandfather says all politicians are thiefs!Well hopefully before the president elect takes his office in feburary he brushes up on foreign policies which he lacks any skill of before he decides to try cutting deals with iran when they want nothing to do with us,hopefully he doesnt wage a war on are country and hopeully he can convince the people of the south not to wage the next cold war, cause then the "change" will really have taken effect.Mccain was no better he would of left the taxes the same which i thought was a better route to stick on are same path but at the same time just like obama he seemed like a weak candidate as well,even though he has had plenty experience he does lack the knowledge of the economy and knows to well about foreign conlficts which is good but bad,so in my opinion both candidates were horrible this is the worst election ive seen by far can we just get some new ones and vote again?

mothabitch @ 2008-10-01T13:30:00

2008-10-01T20:30:51Z

I havent listened them in forever and there still the single best band ive heard

So, so you think you can tell
Heaven from Hell,
Blue skys from pain.
Can you tell a green field
From a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you to trade
Your heros for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange
A walk on part in the war
For a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls
Swimming in a fish bowl,
Year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found?
The same old fears.
Wish you were here.

mothabitch @ 2008-09-24T12:00:00

2008-09-24T19:04:19Z

"bitch shouldnt have drank my last pabst"

sittin there on a broken chair
i look to see
but your never staring at me
its time to fry
so ive got this little game
im gonna cut open your sides
disembowl your whole damn body
leave you out to die
remember the chair
so broken and torn
picken out the peices
dipped em in old corn
picked up the sharp the leg
shoved it up your ass
made you a meat popsicle
dipped you in sharp grass

haha my new song it goes awesome with the guitar

mothabitch @ 2008-09-15T21:39:00

2008-09-16T04:43:18Z

so my step dad left a week ago today

i thought things were gonna be easy and more relaxed and less stressful which is true on his behlaf being away from us

but it laid a whole new burden on my life,im use to paying rent but now i have to cover 300 more dollars on it,ive got my own pup to take care of and i gotta be around to keep my mom in good spirits cause shes alone now,i dont mind that part though shes an awesome chica

but damn hopefully i can get a few relaxing days here soon

all ive been doin is work,work,and more work and then play my guitar,i just got out of the studio for my own acoustic cd which i was excited for cause it came out really well,to bad old friends die down though i wish i had someone else to jam with now,someone whos not into drugs haha

well now im just rambling so ill say peace

holla at ya dal

i love you stephanie

hope everythings well brit

mike is the itallion stallion

dylan is tall

nick may be gay(jk dood ha)

peace doods

mothabitch @ 2008-09-10T07:35:00

2008-09-10T14:35:29Z

my step dad is finally gone forever

now life can get back to normal

mothabitch @ 2008-09-02T18:21:00

2008-09-03T01:26:16Z

throwin punches

fighting cause someone stole your weed pipe

i dont get people maybe its cause im not the pot head i use to be but punching someone in the face because you think they stole your pipe is stupid,your in the weed world what would you expect of people

i still dont get why to punch them anyways,fighting is stupid have we grown up to become so immature that we have to fight each other,i dont get it, and it was a sucker punch on him of all things,real manly

why dont you kids grow up into the real world many worse things are going to happen to you that you wont be able to punch the person in the face for so you gonna have to find another plan of attack if you can ever get out of your childish stage

to bad for you guys your gonna sale that tap

i wonder what tasc would think when they found out how much smoking and drinking goes on in your place......and oh yea i do have the number and oh ya i do no you cant have it anywhere near you,just keep that in mind when they ask give you a call next time,not for your color,but for a search

have fun haha

mothabitch @ 2008-08-29T21:40:00

2008-08-30T04:40:01Z

thats crazy to think about man

im joining the army

peace guys

2008-08-19T05:23:34Z

well that last conversation i just had convinced me

i had the choice of moving back to chandler or my hometown where i was just visiting in california

chandler is too close for bad things

peace out guys im moving to california

my time in az is over

trip back to my roots

2008-08-16T10:07:11Z

ah california was probably something i have been needing to get back to for a while

i went there for a few days and just got back and loved everything about it

the first day we got there i gotta go to places i hadnt seen in 13 years, i went to the beach with cassidy,his girlfriend katie and i guess you can call her my step sister maegan and drank with a sweet bonfire goin on,when we were sittin there these crazy dark shaded figures started walking up to us so me and cass thought we were gonna have to chuck norris battle them,but the first thing they said when they got up to us was lets party,ah thats how awesome the people are there even,or at least in my home town in ventura,ended up being a really good reminder of what my real home is like,minus the drinking haha

the other days we got to go surfing which i use to be a pro at but now lac the skill to even get up which sucked but its cool i get that it takes time to get back into that,then we also saw pineapple express at the end of the day which was a hilarious movie

then on are last day there we went up to this place called rose valley which i would say is the most beautiful place on earth,it has a huge waterfall covered in these awesome plants and flowers with water running off of them at a constant pace,if anyone ever gets the chance check it out,its like no waterfall youve ever seen

most of my spare time was hanging out with my real birth father,he came back a few years ago and we workin on gettin a life and communication back together which is gettin along well,but the good thing is since weve been seperated we both picked up guitar so we just go back and forth playing tunes with each other,its kinda good that i can share that with him

i already miss it to much

well later doods

mothabitch @ 2008-07-29T02:39:00

2008-07-29T09:39:28Z

What can i say

i love late night phone cigs

shootin the shit with someone good

i love my best friend

mothabitch @ 2008-07-27T22:09:00

2008-07-28T05:18:47Z

the one thing that is the hardest in life is choosing what you want,id have to say for myself at least.

This never occured to me till recently or so in the past few weeks of this thing building up inside me

when theres something you feel like you have a constant desire for, you envy the object,interpret it,scan it from top to bottom,relizing the flaws in in every feature of this desire but in the end you find these imperfections to be something you cant resist

everything i have built in my life has made me who i am today and put me in the position to start making more of my own choices,especially with what i want and continue making the decisions to better my life and leave me with no regrets,so many things go into play with whats wrong with what my problem is but that is the beauty of it,wrong and write stirred into one thing can be something beautiful,if you want it grab at it before it becomes one of your rule. Regret.

i dont have a plan for my life,to me,i think ill just let it play out like the stories i read when i was little,adventures,lessons and a few morals here and there.

maybe ive finally figured it out

if you can make a choice,should you go for it?

mothabitch @ 2008-07-24T02:19:00

2008-07-24T09:20:08Z

damn ive been reading all my old posts from this thing,its nuts to read how i use to be and think about the person i am now,alot of things changed but i guess i dont have a complaint

[01] Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
[02] I will then tell what song[s] remind me of you.
[03] Next, I will tell you who you remind me of, celebrity/animated/otheriwse,unless I can't think of someone.
[04] Last, i will try to name a single word that best describes you.
[05] Put this in your journal

holla at ya dal(finger love)

mike is the itallion stallion

oh ya and just cause she said ill give her a throw out

i love my mars

later doods

mothabitch @ 2008-07-19T12:05:00

2008-07-19T19:07:51Z

hey doods

i saw the dark night last night it was so awesome

heathe ledger played the best joked by far

sucks to think that hes dead now cause that dood deserves an award

go see it

other than that ive been workin at my hole in the wall job

kinda sucks

and taking care of my new puppy

well tell me how everyones doing i miss this thing

take it out the old way

holla at ya dal(finger love)

brit is the shit

love ya steph

mike is the itallion stallion

later doods and doodets

mothabitch @ 2008-06-03T23:34:00

2008-06-04T06:36:28Z

its been a long time since ive been on this thing

not to much has changed just the other day i reached my first full year of no smoking so its good to feel like i wont be going back to that

im workin alot and almost finished up with school

soon will be moved

just enjoying the hell out of life

i miss all you doods

let me know how its all going with you

im out like a brown scout

later doods

-kevin

mothabitch @ 2006-12-18T00:07:00

2006-12-18T07:07:13Z

i loved this whole weekend it was the most fun ive had in a while

me,meg,kenny,lindsey,corbin, and david all went up the prescott there was so much fun on the way

oooooo watch out for bloody basin road

and why is there a prison in a place called happy valley?

haha we flinstones the whole way there

poor meg had a flamable hair issue: /

but we ate at the coolest local pizza shop it was so good

then kenny was up there with his parents today and i drove back up there just to pick him up it was fun haha

im exicted for mine and megs trip for a white christmas

life is happy right now and steve is doin alot better im happy:]

mothabitch @ 2006-12-14T11:28:00

2006-12-14T18:28:35Z

day of no smoking this is cake:]

yesturday was so awesome me,cory m,steve d,derek d,and devon went to the abandoned plane yard and adventured!!!

i want an airplane so bad

i crawlesd through some crazy whole and heard moans it was scary

oh and i got a flight planner!

then we adventured are way out of there with some e brakes

oh and hell yea i did a 360 in the galant hahahaahahah

later doods

mothabitch @ 2006-12-10T22:04:00

2006-12-11T05:04:04Z

im 3 weeks clean from everything im so happy

im getting back into my old groove im happy for that as well

tommorow im tryin to quit smoking if i get that done hopefully i can ride my bike a little better without weezing

i miss the family alot i do have a new one but i guess things just wont ever be the same

but alot of weird things have been comin out lately in my life

i dont know how to react to them

later doods

mothabitch @ 2006-11-14T22:34:00

2006-11-15T05:34:20Z

hey doods

i havent used this in forever

life has been ok but ruff

me and jess are idk i honestly question if were even dating

i dont think it was ever right in a relationship to be seeing each other twice a month i dont think its healthy almost anytime were suppost to see each other something always comes up on her schedule and we cant hangout, i question if she even is into me anymore cause shes always telling me shes out having fun but then she cant have the time for me i dont get it, were back to how we started and i hate it

mothabitch @ 2006-09-29T12:30:00

2006-09-29T19:33:06Z

so on wensday me and jess have been together for a year

i love that woman

shes the only girl ive been with that i can say fuck you to and i wont get yelled at or beat

ive never fought with her we have no grudges on each other and we talk and hangout with whoever we want

its the sweetest thing in the world

other than that ive just been working alot and hanging out with kenny and cory all the time and havin fun with it

minus going to jail a couple weeks ago

i dont really drink anymore i dont have fun cause everyone else quit so theres no fun

mothabitch @ 2006-09-06T11:19:00

2006-09-06T18:20:06Z

the parties are no longer the same I dont even enjoy a drink anymore

i wish you werent gone

mothabitch @ 2006-08-31T04:27:00

2006-08-31T11:38:52Z

im at corys again

I leave to california on friday at 4 to finally see my dad

its gonna be weird since I havent seen or talked to him since I was 9 I dont know how to react

its not something im lookin foward too

especially missing out on the friday and saturday night partys with them

one weekend away is a long time when Ive come to terms with people here there awesome

today was different

jess came to me the first time ive ever seen her sad but at the same time I was so excited to see her(is that mest up)shes had some troubles that im not gonna share with the world just between me and her, anyways ive never seen her sad this is the first time I sat down and talked to her for a couple hours, the only reason I bring this is up is because ive talked to people and helped them when there having problems but the difference was that I know this girl, ive been through it all with her, shes my gf of 11 mnths last sunday(minus random break ups)ive never been in a fight with her never once looked down upon her never seen her mad this is the first mood ive seen thats different from her but you know what I helped her I basically got those tears to stop flowwin and got the smiles to keep comin on the girl I love, then I took her out for olive garden

ive never come to her with any of my problems which i rarely have any but I know I could with her

basically it felt so much different to help someone you care about alot

for me she was the first gf I loved that I helped with a problem, it felt just as good as she makes me feel each day

mothabitch @ 2006-08-30T03:27:00

2006-08-30T10:29:36Z

so ive pretty much found that i have a problem for drinking maybe hhhmmm

well im drunk right now its just a tuesday night I think the ocassion is a boring night gone fun

i definately miss my party friends the random partys suck i cant shout and go crazy

I miss you guys

hollar at ya dal

what up steph

later doods

mothabitch @ 2006-08-25T02:12:00

2006-08-25T09:14:51Z

i havent used this in about a year

just wqanted to try it out

I havent been feeling to well lately

i lost someone great and very dear to me i love you mark

the only bright side is that a couple weeks ago me and jess got back together I missed her alot she was the something I was missing at the moment itll be a year in a month and I wouldnt trade her for any other person on earth

just wanted to check up on this and see how everyone else is doing

see ya late doods

mothabitch @ 2006-03-18T17:26:00

2006-03-19T00:25:45Z

Im over at alexs hiouse we just got back from the junk yard, this spring break has been pretty sweet ive drank way to much and been shot in the face iwth apaintball gun but thats alkll in good fun

now were headed to tylers show peace everybody give me a call to chill